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Me? I will listen to the song Superhuman by Chris Brown feat Keri Hilson over and over and over again! (Kalau dulu layan Mariah Carey, Hero). Kahkahkah.
I have this split feelings about going back in June for a cousin's wedding. To go back or not to go back? Buy the flight tickets, or not buy the ticket flights? Pening-pening! I realized that it has been awhile since we had a 'BIG' family gathering. The last time was during another cousin's wedding back in 2005 (ke 2006?). That was 5 years back and we were waiting for another big event (wedding to be exact) for us to get together. Furthermore, the time was just right - 19th June for nikah and 26th June for bertandang - as i will attend my 'very last' examination paper on 12th June. But the thing is, I will only have my graduation by the 15th July! Tak kan nak balik Malaysia just for 3 weeks, lepas tu balik UK semula for graduation then balik Malaysia semula for good? Flight tickets could cost me alot, RM2500at least. *_*
It's actually a big deal for me to attend this family event. My brother will be the official photographer, cousin S will be the pengapit, cousin T will be the DJ (cool ey), auntie A has already bought the fabric with the official grey silver theme colour. Ahhhh, tension saya mendengarnye. And i'm stuck here in this country feeling left out :(. Hahaha, takde lah sedih sangat tak dapat organize apa-apa, tapi the fact that my cousins are my siblings, so bila one of your big brother nak kahwin, tak kan tak mau attend kan? >.~
Yes darlings, since my dear father passed away when i was 6 y.o., I took turns to live either with my grandmother (dad's side) or my mother. Susah okay decision itu. I lived with my grandma right after dad passed away (age 7 to 8 y.o.), then lived with my mum just before i enter MRSM (age 13). Making the right decisions to spend my Hari Raya or School holidays was the most terrible times for me. Mum would always went back to my step-dad's hometown, while i prefer to be at grandma's house since i have all my cousin during that particular seasons. The fact that my mother is my mother (if you know what i mean), i should have not picked others over her. But.....I did (and i felt terrible about it)! Sebab nya, despite the loss i had experienced, i felt that cousins are fun to be with. So, it's clear kan, how close I am with my cousins?
Tuhla, I've been thinking that, nothing could obstruct me from going back to Malaysia this Juneif I can make it happen! Betul tak? Caranya, I should find ways to fork out money for the super-expensive flight tickets by myself. Maybe I'll add more stuffs onFashion Forward and This Is So Fashion? I can cut on food, and stick to the smart-price tags? Tak payah pergi my very final trip to Swiss for skiing this April? I don't think using my savings could solve the problem since i need it for our 'Mini S' project >.< Nampaknya i kene simpan dulu masalah ni dalam poket dan fikir lagi esok :(
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